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Posted by Partlycloudy on January 8, 2009, at 12:25:29
I'm eating again - yay! Every day, a little bit of progress. Getting some sleep, thanks to Seroquel. I never know if that stuff is going to hit me like a ton of downy bricks or what. Anxiety continues to be ridiculous, but Klonopin, even at a low dose, just wallops me, so I'm sticking with Xanax, and jonesing between doses - yuck.
Tomorrow I go in for a private yoga class that I'd had to delay when I did my face plant at home. Now that my new front teeth are installed (and I look like an elderly Hollywood starlet if I say so myself) my confidence has a bit more of a boost.
But the days continue to be up and down. I set what I thought were pretty small goals for myself today, and stumbled on a few of them. Found myself using that "L" word where it ends with that "User" sound because I couldn't achieve these simple tasks.
Then I got the mail and a friend had sent me a divinely scented candle. Would a Loser get one of those? Not!
So, yes. I am all over the map. Going to sit quietly for a bit, make a cup of tea, and NOT watch the news. Reading is a bit beyond me aside from magazine fluff. Went to the grocery store for the world's fastest trip through. I think I may have held my breath for the entire time, or at least was panting. Not comfortable.
I'm thinking ear plugs and blinders might do the trick for now. A little less sensory input would be nice.
But a lot of progress from just a short time ago. With a lot of help. Thanks to my friends, my husband, my T, my pdoc.
Posted by Annierose on January 8, 2009, at 14:23:25
In reply to Back to once a week with T, posted by Partlycloudy on January 8, 2009, at 12:25:29
Baby steps can get you going in the right direction --- one foot in front of the other -- slowly but surely.
I'm glad you are feeling better and feeling the support of your family, t and p-doc. Accepting that people love you and care for you is huge ... when our internal structure is so hard on oneself (at least I am).
Wishing you continued success!
Posted by raisinb on January 8, 2009, at 18:01:46
In reply to Back to once a week with T, posted by Partlycloudy on January 8, 2009, at 12:25:29
Partlycloudy, it sounds so tough, what you are going through--but you are making significant progress all the same. Getting through those moments of self-hatred is such an amazing achievement. Enjoy your candle! :)
Posted by antigua3 on January 9, 2009, at 11:00:59
In reply to Back to once a week with T, posted by Partlycloudy on January 8, 2009, at 12:25:29
From here, it sounds like you're feeling a lot better. Outside perspective, of course, because I'm no expert.
But glad to here you're making progress. You are--we can see it in your posts.
have a good day,
antigua
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