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Posted by thewrite1 on January 12, 2005, at 21:54:36
At the end of my last session, I asked my T if I could call her because I'm going through a difficult thing and I guess I wanted reassurance since I have a problem with calling her anyway.
I wasn't planning to call, so for one, I'm afraid she thinks that I was planning this all along because I never ask her that. 2nd, something completely new came up. I didn't expect it and I couldn't control it. I'm embarrassed to go back in and see her 'cause now she's going to know. The worst part is, she didn't even really help me.
I just want to call and tell her that I'm never coming back, even though that's not really what I want.
Posted by Shortelise on January 13, 2005, at 0:32:38
In reply to Regret calling my T, posted by thewrite1 on January 12, 2005, at 21:54:36
Writeone, I just don't know what it is, but I have SO often felt what you describe.
The very first time I ever called him, telling him I was beside myself with anxiety and depression, I swear he suggested I go shopping!!! Can you imagine. He says that isn't what he said, or at least not what he meant, but he did! You can imagine how much confidence I felt in him when I hung up the phone. I so long to be one of those confident, quick witted people who could have replied on the spot. As it was it took me about a year to bring it up.
But that was a long time ago - five years or so. Now when I call him, I am able to ask for what I need more easily. Most of the time.
But I do so very well know what you are talking about. The wanting never to see your T again, though it's not really what you want at all. Come to think of it, maybe it's a way of exoressing how badly you feel without having to say it in so many words? I mean, if you call and say you don't want to go back, aren't you expressing great discomfort and unhappiness?
I don't know. Maybe that's not right for you, but thinking about this now, I am sure it was what I was doing. Other times I wanted to hurt him for not being what I needed, and for hurting me.
***sigh***
I wish I could help, but all I can do is tell you I think I know how you feel.
Hugs,
ShortE
Posted by thewrite1 on January 13, 2005, at 20:12:25
In reply to Re: Regret calling my T » thewrite1, posted by Shortelise on January 13, 2005, at 0:32:38
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