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Posted by maddy4 on June 23, 2006, at 20:33:50
this post could be in many sections on here.
the more i fear divorce the more effed up i get - as if i need it - being panic attack queen when all was well.
im goin to try to drink a magnum tonight to make it all go away.
i am so jittery/panicky from upping my lex to 7.5 mg (OMG - sarcasm) and i basically feel like sh*t. in all ways - on all levels - in every respect.
i am just done - not that i am suicidal - i am not - but maybe i am in a slow way - taking ssris - drinking wine - smoking cigs - mind effing myself w/ these stupid drugs that are making me feel worse right now - and i dont even know why im taking them.
my panic was under control w/ 5 mgs of lex and xan as needed - but according to my husband i need to change EVERYTHING flipping thing abt myself for the 'marraige (LOL)' to work. and im normally not the type to comply with anything - much less taking more of a drug to prove i am 'trying' to be less controlling.
whatever. save the marriage - what effeing marriage. someone shoot me. why does life have to be so effing complicated - why does HE have to make it so hard? i dont think it has to be this way and i dont want to live this way. im going to be killed by N korea or terrorists (or SSRIS now ;) ) anyway. cant i just be controlling and have fun? OVER IT ALL.
Posted by Phillipa on June 23, 2006, at 21:03:28
In reply to i hate my life, posted by maddy4 on June 23, 2006, at 20:33:50
Maddy go back to the meds that worked for you it's your body. And I've been divorced and it's not the end of the world. Either you will find you like living by yourself as my Daughter did or you will meet someone else when the time is right. And it's good to get the anger out constructively. Love Phillpa Babblemail always open
Posted by bassman on June 24, 2006, at 8:38:57
In reply to Re: i hate my life » maddy4, posted by Phillipa on June 23, 2006, at 21:03:28
Maddy,
I think most people feel like you when they are at the apparent end of their marriage, they are in a great deal of emotional pain, and they are being blamed for everything. It is so typical-just everything seems so out of control and there is nothing in life that seems worthwhile. from your post, you don't seem to think you have a marriage-maybe in the sense there is no important emotional connection there for you. May I suggest: consider divorce seriously and either decide to do it-and then do it-or, have a long talk with your man after you've decided what you need out of the relationship. As much as it might not seem it now, your future is your choice, not anyone else's. You don't have to stay in a situation that is hurtful-but you will have to go through some painful periods to leave it and the panic won't help. But you can do it...and it sort of sounds like maybe that's your where you'd like to go right now. Whatever you choose, you can do it. Really. Best of luck.
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